Thinking Aloud

I haven’t been posting to the blog as much, though I have still managed to get out one episode of the podcast in two weeks… and a few PS4 share videos on my YouTube channel. So I guess I’m not entirely inactive, but I feel like I’ve held myself to a higher standard over the past couple of years, and don’t want to let myself slack. It’s just that I forgot what it was like to work full-time and go to school as well as trying to enjoy all of these hobbies and side-projects, chase tail, and otherwise live life.

So here’s a completely forced, personal stream of consciousness sort of post to just get me writing. Hopefully more big stories and things worth sharing will come along soon and I will adjust to my schedule to the point of figuring out when the best time to write is. Perhaps binge writing on weekends or when I don’t have other things going on after work. I will say though, it has been nice to be back to reality and having a normal routine. It’s just more tiresome than I remembered. Guess that’s the getting older part.

I’ve really been enjoying my recent game acquisitions. Every single game I’ve picked up in the last month or so has been fantastic, and though not all are brand new releases they are all worthwhile distractions and allow me to experience different things in different ways. For the first time in a long time, I’ve actually just let myself enjoy games as they come, and as the mood strikes. For a while there I was really trying to play all of these games in my backlog and started thinking, why? If I got a game two years ago and still haven’t gone back to finish it, I probably never will, right? Well no, not exactly. I go in weird waves where I want to play something retro and will play through an old Sega or Playstation game. Sometimes I feel like playing something that I just didn’t get into on the first try. Sometimes I do what I’ve been doing lately, and just play a little bit of everything.

For instance, today I ended up playing some Diablo III (and a little bit last night too) and managed to get another set piece I needed, along with about ten more paragon levels and a sweet belt upgrade that casts bombardment every 8 seconds. It’s ridiculous. Then I played some Battlefront with my friend for a couple of hours. I played through a few missions of the story in Grand Theft Auto V. I even played some Bloodborne, but damn it if Father Gascoigne kills me just before I kill him every time. Finally, I wrapped up the evening with some League of Legends. Another patch rolled in this week and brought some Mastery changes that I’m planning to do a video for. That brings me back around to content creation.

I have every intention of keeping the podcast a weekly thing. Sometimes it’s starting to feel like we’re running out of things to talk about, but then we magically find something to rant about anyway. That photoblog side project of mine is still collecting dust after a month or so of inactivity. I still don’t want to delete it, but I don’t think I have the energy to keep it going. I want to continue creating video content, mainly because I’ve started collecting a little audience on YouTube and have been getting a bit more activity on my channel. It’s a completely different sort of world but I feel like I want to be a part of it, as much as I want to be a blogger and a podcaster. I like being multimedia. I’m still figuring out my style or voice for YouTube though, so I know the videos are of questionable quality. Honestly I want it to be more about the games and the moments within them than about me. I am happy to do voice over work but I don’t think I’m ever going to be a vlogger who uses a webcam. I am looking into getting a better recording microphone though so at least that quality will be improved.

I sprung for a few things over the weekend. Ended up grabbing the season pass for Fallout 4 so that I get it before the price goes up. I hear the first DLC is coming very soon, so that’s exciting. I haven’t played Fallout in a month or so. I really should start up a different playthrough to use some of the mods, but I do want to keep my first playthrough vanilla and see everything the way it was originally designed too. Anyway, that will give me more to record and write about which is always good. I also picked up another Early Access game called Cryptark, and a full-release title called Galak-Z. Both are semi-rogue-like, sci-fi themed twin stick shooter types. Both are really cool, and though you can see a difference in the production values right away, I like both aesthetics. I do highly recommend using a controller for both games though, as the mouse/keyboard scheme is clunky. I have two quick look videos planned for these games. Oh, and maybe one for Dungeon Souls, which I finally got around to trying as well.

So yeah, I have things in the works, it just might take me a little longer to get them out.